**UPDATE** Rion is aware of the technical issues with his web site and getting them fixed, so it’s okay to go there and get his Powerliminal: http://powerliminals.com/social_anxiety.html
In fact, I highly recommend you get there before he gets wise and raises the price. The benefit is worth far more than the price he’s charging.
So now an update on me. Damn, this transformation is intense. Today was a state of resistance – it started off feeling very tired and sluggish, a very “thick” feeling, while being aware of that part of me that goes back and replays things from my recent past and looks for evidence of where I should be embarrassed. That’s the “little boy voice” that’s kept me small all this time, and I let it be.
Eventually the “thickness” gave way to anger. I was angry with everything I was learning, bored to death with my day, angry at myself. And I let myself be angry, welcomed it without attachment or judgment. I realize my inner life has been a shit sandwich of anger between two pieces of fear. I’ve been ridiculously uptight – the stick up my ass has been crushed into a toothpick.
Letting go of the fear and connecting to the higher source, to interdependence, opens up space for all the other crap that’s been stuck. So all that stuff has to work its way out. Today’s been a day of letting the emotional toxins flow out. Now I’m kind of laughing because it feels good.
This is a HUGE change.
I did some self-hypnosis to clean up my past memories, to bring this feeling of connectedness through all my past memories. After that was when the anger came up, so that process loosened things up.
Okay, time to have more water to cleanse out the toxins. I’ll keep you posted.